The Book of Ciknisa

my last post

2008-09-24T06:18:00.004+08:00

okay so this is my las post before i move to wordpress. yes.

Im moving to wordpress. suddenly feel like moving to wordpress.

ooouhh.. ive been using blogger since 2004. hurhur...

its time for a change

still the same address.

http://ciknisawearsprada.wordpress.com

2008-09-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

AKU PUNYE PASAL AH NAK BUAT APE!

this will be an emo one.

2008-09-23T04:43:00.002+08:00

i realise somehing when i woke up for sahur today.

1. for someone to change another person,
he should change himself first.

2. when a lady is married to a man,
she is married to the man's family.

Im pissed with everything about you.

first, you made a mistake, then i have to answer for you. plus, still have the cheek to ask for a favour. you totally change, because of her ok? let me say this straight.
many people hate me because of her okay? Surprisingly, someone whom you will never guess also have problem with her.

im so lucky that bi is not the sorta person. i may be always want my part but on the other hand,
his family is also his priority.and i need to be considerate. furthermore hes the eldest. and his responsibility is bigger.thats the most important thing tha i also have to remember. to considerate.

secondly, if mom was alive, it would be just me, mom and dad. wouldnt it be fun?
when dad is away for work, it would be just me and mom. fun activity? shopping!
during exams, mom wil always be beside me. as usual make me a cup of milo.
when both my parents are around, we would always go somewhere fun. again, shopping? ECP, have satay and interesting places even if i made a mistake, it woudl be my parents who will settle with me. because they will always settle with me wisely and NOT EMOTIONALLY.

ive been keeping things a lot to myself. until ive forgotten the past ones. sometimes, i totally have no right to voice things out. all i can do is pretend that everything is fine. and i have to face the same thing everyday and laugh like there no problem. dad always advice me, when we do not have the right to voice out, we dont voice out.. it would make things worse. but until when? each and everyone of us have the right to voice out. authority doesnt apply in relationsships nor friendships. when i do not voice out, people are just getting more big headed.

behind this smile, there are thousands of unhappiness.
but lke they say, Senyum itu sedekah. "Smiling is a charity."

whats mos important is, Love. when you love someone, you will always try to advice the person you love wihout breaking heir heart. even it breaks their heart, you will always try to make things up.

Just In Case you dont know, Im a Girl.
some people cant seem to see that.

2008-09-22T17:25:00.002+08:00

ive been taking care of people's feeling a lot until people make use of me.
some people just wana befriend me because they can make diff types
of excuse of not wanting to fork out money and ask me to pay everything.
an when have problem, come to me trash out everything..
den when no problem, talk rubbish about me.
just because i have everything that you need to accomplish your plan, you use me.

thanks a lot eh.

okay so yesterday before breakfasting at granny's place,
went Ngee ann and paragon to search for the guess bag.
and then found a nice wide but short bag at Taka after 3 hours of searching.
hurhur.. Mr was like my PA searching for the right bag.

next thing to search for is tudung and shooess! heels? or jus flat pointy? slippers? ouh no.
i wont be buying any new set of raya clothes.
still got to wear last yr's and last 2 yr's.
i only wear kurung once a yr. so... like defeat the purpose if i buy a new one.

so this yr's first day would be blue or gold kurung.
second white an purple dress.

okaylah.. nothing more to blog about.

rase2 kalau dah capai ape yg kau plan tu kan, tak payah nak buat cerite pasal org.
den bile ade masalah lagi dengan org yg ko cerite pasal aku u kan, jgn dtg
merangkak carik aku. den dgn aku ko cerite buruk pasal org lain.
dah bagus aku tak bilang org lain u yg kau ckp buruk sal die.

=)

2008-09-20T20:00:00.004+08:00

so today starts the last 10 days of Ramadhan.

today, i relieved Mr's class.
then accompanied him viewing.. collected my baju raya. which doesnt look like one.
its a dress. obviously im not gonna wear it on the first day...
den i had the worst cramp ever! i couldnt tahan..
they aske me to breakfast, but i said i'll be fine.

met bi's client for the first time. they hapen to be bi's
friends. the wife is a chinese convert. amazaing!
shes a teo. married to an indian. beautiful couple.
good...

tomorrow proly will be going orchard to get raya bag.
my handbags are all belong to sis.
so since sis had moved out i didnt have much handbags left.
so its time to shop. ive been eyeing on this handbag..
its sooo elegant! beee-you-tee-fool!
and i saw this at guess shop.. its soooo.. hawwwwt!!!!! ekceli ive been eyeing on dis oso...
but no money to buy.. haha its 300+. wait for my weding day then get lor.. hehe

ok im done with berangan-ing

Happy

2008-09-18T18:24:00.002+08:00

Wokay...
So i passed all my module for my first sem.. Alhamulillah.
i really couldnt believe my eyes that i got a B for maths..
i thought i would fail.
so as usual, dad wasnt that happy.
I see he has never been happy with my results even though at some points i
scored well.

I got a high 5 with bro. haha.. like so lame.. haha..
but everyone's happy with my results.
but i think im kinda average only. so need to work extra hard
next sem. hurhur... amin!
but i tell you 1st sem was never easy. need to go through all the hassle was
never easy.

ive been doing crunches lately with 20 crunches daily and 30 sets of AC1.
n now im having a very bad aches.
hurhur...

30 mins to breakfast. what to blog eh.

oh yes and not forgetting my mister.
his soo happy. and he even told me, i can do better than what i got.
yes Insya Allah. will try harder for next sem.
i hope to get over all my semesters quickly without repeating any modules.
an quickly further my degree. hurhur..

okay im done. bye!

im happy!

another update

2008-09-18T06:09:00.003+08:00

Okay. i always have a last minute plan.

again, another unplanned meeting with 2 people.

met my dearest Kak Nani & Mr Ho yday to breakfast at Fig & Olive @ E!hub.

err.. i shud say that the meal didnt meet my expectation.

its kinda too blunt for a famous restaurant..

okay so while dining, talked about school, MALIQ *sheeesh*, Syria.

den Mr ho mae lotsa lame jokes which we cant stop laughing.

Mr is very good when comes to entertain new people he meet.

shud have asked Fir to come along lah eh kak nani?

well maybe next meeting? okay?

while waiting for dearest kak nani to come.....

mode: bad-tudung-day

seee? i told you... the meals were so... weird until mr oso dunno

what to order.

oh yes after dinner, we went to Tampines to walk around.

we saw quite a number of sales at the atrium.

i bought this movie. a veryyyyy old movie.

Drumline. starring nick canon.

i watched it like a kazilion times. but never get sick of it.

gd story...

Look at this Little Sin Chan

isnt she precious?

overall, im happy!!!!

2008-09-16T18:26:00.001+08:00

2008-09-16T11:34:00.002+08:00

I visited my debate mentor Cikgu Amini last sunday.
And last night at 8.50pm, she passed away.
Allah loves her more than we all do.
May you rest in peace and togther with the righteous.

So last sunday went break fasting at mosi cafe
As i was craving for their chicken shawarma.
their syawarma is just soo superb!
with the cosy housefeeling deco.
not forgetting their potato wedges. purrrfect!
went with UCHUUU!!!! and MR.
far was supposed to join us but she had to go back.
so next time otay?

2008-09-13T22:10:00.002+08:00

Look whos in a house! keke....
1st day of school.
pics of room. this is 99.5% hhehehe.. 0.5% havent yet..

Sadness in me.

2008-09-13T19:41:00.003+08:00

Okay so,
My nest is 99.5% done. al the thinsg are arranged properly.
Walls are all painted. Purple and white.

Im supposed to uploa the pic of my room.
but theres another thing tht my bro wants to do with my wall.
So gotta wait...
Sabar ye Siraj.. lol!

Okay so recently life has been great.
Everyday getto see ms lil rayyan.
then everyday she will pull my hair.

Recently cikgu amini has been amitted to ICU.
I am so sad yesterday morning when my englsh teacher called.
i was soo blur then suddenly got shocked.
Cikgu amini was my mentor during our debate against west spring sec.
I cried. Shes now depending on the life suport machine.
Cikgu pls be strong. You gotta be strong. We all still need you.

I couldnt stop thinkingof her.
THE WORST PART WAS, SOME PEOPLE HAVE THE CHEEK AND GUTTS
TO SPREAD THE NEWS ABOUT SHE HAD PASSED AWAY.

yes cikgu always scolded us.
but FOR OUR WRONGDOINGS!
so how can you be angry at her.
an now if you go an visit her she wont be able to scold you NOR TALK TO YOU,YOU IDIOT!
she has sacrificed a lot for us.

okay enuff.

Sometimes when i do things myself,
other people come in and complain about my lackness in doing my work.
It really pisses me off. its not as if that person help me do the work.
but the sad thing is i cant scold nor be angry at that person.
even im angry at that person the curious thing is that i can still
be nice to them.
i can still help them.

and thats when they take advantage to bring myself down.

I am not weak. Surrendering doesnt mean losing.

but i just want to trash everything here.
you were not here most of the days.
you dint even call me and ask me how am i doing.
you dint even help me do things which i totally cant afford to do it perfectly.
you dint even help motivate and help me to do something you want me to do.
yet you still scold me. you still embarassed me in front of everyone.
you made me cry everynight . you made me lose my confidence.
you even prioritize the people out there than me.

after all youve done to me.

Im still nice to you. and love you. like how i always do.
because you are still my responsibilty.
if only you know how i feel.

think of when was the last time i touched you.
we are like strangers. until you never touched my face.
you never even once give me the chance to tell you how i feel because you always
think that im in the wrong.

►►100 truths about me

2008-09-10T18:03:00.002+08:00

ARE YOU:
Perfect:
♥ obviously no.

Tall:
♥ yes.

In your pajamas:
♥ in my jeans and white tee.

Left handed:
♥ right handy.

LAST

Last friend you saw:
♥ Aidah.

Talked to on the phone:
♥ boyfriend.

Person to text you:
♥ Uchu aka Aidah

Is today better than yesterday :
♥ Yes, Alhamdulillah.

FAVORITE:

Number:
♥ Se7en

Color:
♥ purple

Food:
♥ ayam masak merah

Place:
♥ Mosi Cafe

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did when you wake up this morning?
♥ Sahur!

Q: Do you have anything bothering you
♥ yes, how long am i going to sleep in a garage?

Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
♥ Bangkok Dangerous

Q: Where is the last place you went?
♥ SElfix DIY

Q. Do you smile a lot?
♥ recently..

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
♥ no aah no uch thing

Q: Are you a friendly person?
♥ depends lah who. sick of being friendly to everyone.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
♥ in my so called garage.

Q: Why did you sleep there?
♥ becos it has turned into a garage.. anyway its my room.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
♥ yesterday

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
♥ Im so thankful there are people out there whos wiling to give me a chance

Q: Rate life as of right now, one
being bad, ten being great?
♥ 5 neutral

Q: What do you hear right now?
♥ totally quiet. not even a sound of my AC

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
♥ yes, tummy..

Q: What's your favorite month?
♥ January, June and August

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
♥ Uchu!

Are you single?
♥ Single and unavailable

Are you tired?
♥ bored

Are your parents still married?
♥ uhuh.. =)

BASICS:
Real name?
♥ Siti Khairunnisa binti Rahmad

Age?
♥ 19

Eye color?
♥ black

Zodiac sign?
♥ Cancer

Male or female?
♥ Female

Single?
♥ no.

Crushing?
♥ currently no one.

Smart?
♥ 4/10

Hair color?
♥ Brown

Sweats or Jeans?
♥ jeans.

Phone or Camera?
♥ phone.

Health freak?
♥ 1/10

Righty or lefty?
♥ righty.

FIRSTS:
First best friend?
♥ NurHidayah Hashim aka Dya

First award?
♥ won the best speaker for de newpaper Berita Harian Debat 2004

First enemy?
♥

First pet?
♥ a long silver fish

First vacation?
♥ Cameron highlands

CURRENTLY:
Eating?
♥ no, fasting.

Drinking?
♥ my saliva, can!? haha!

Listening to?
♥ nothing.

Plans for tommorow?
♥ Paint room clean up..

Waiting for?
♥ my result. Haiz

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
GENDER:
Lips or eyes?
♥ Lips. i have interest towards thin lips.. =)

Shorter or taller?
♥ taller.

Romantic or spontaneous?
♥ Spontaneous

Sensitive or loud?
♥ Definitely loud.

Hook-up or in a relationshp?
♥ Definitely rship..

HAVE YOU EVER:
Drank bubbles?
♥yess..

Lost glasses/contacts?
♥ yes, 12x ever since primary

Ran away from home?
♥ planned but failed. haha sec 1

Broken someone's heart?
♥ uh-uh.

Been arrested?
♥ nope. goody girly

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
Do you like someone?
♥ my boyfriend!

Are you seriously happy with
where you are in life?
♥ 8/10

Shes coming!

2008-09-10T11:20:00.002+08:00

UCHU'S COMING THIS FRIDAY WEEHHOOO!!!

YEAH!! HAPPY HAPPY...

I MISS YOU UCHU!

QUICK COME THEN ALONG COOK FOR YOU OTAY?

LUV U UCHU!

Busy Bee....

2008-09-09T13:01:00.002+08:00

I didnt know make over-ing the room can be exhausting.
I had the best day yesterday.
Breakfasted at Pasir Ris.
Fried Char Kway Teow and made my very own Potato wrapped with Cheese with spice and everything nice. kekeke...

Everybody loved it! haha..
Esp Mr, he enjoyed my potato..
Sarah too.. hurhur.
And i love it too! I jus love cooking for people.
and enjoy the feeling..

Just now i had to bring up all the pieces for my new cupboard.
and now im having butt ache. haha..
oh last night watched Bangkok Dangerous.
At first it was fun. until the last part we were like -____-" thats it?

VERY BAD ENDING.

hmmmph...

Im so not looking forward to 18th of sept.
So i shall pretend to be super busy bee.
and pretend that im not gonna receive any results.

Dad didnt have the time to by the paint for my room.
So today i'll be going Century Sq and get 2 colours from Selfix.
huhuh cant wait..
Im gonna be very busy seh..
Must quickly finish everything..
Im like sleeping in a garage..
Need to assemble the pieces then put all books inside.

okay need to continue bringing up the pieces up..
hurhur...

chiao!

Sickening.

2008-09-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

Okay now im not sure.
At first she said everything is confirmed. starting tomorrow teach.
then when i called her to get full details and also the temp contract,
Shes unavailable. and just now texted me asking me not to sleep first.
waddahelllaaa?

I seriously dun care if i dont get the job.
Its not as if im desperate to get a job.
Its just for seeking experience purpose.
If youre not serious then dont.
you r asking me to start everything tomorrow and now i dun have any details?

no full details, no exact address..

woah okay wait moments ago she called.
and said that I dun need to come. confirm.
why? because im not a registered MOe relief teacher which they didnt even mention to me that
im suppose to apply online.. ape seh!

im mad.. bye

I got a JOB!

2008-09-08T07:49:00.003+08:00

I got an sms this morning..
Was expecting Mr to texted me skali other people.
A lady teted me to ask if im free to Relief an absent teacher
at Chai Chee Sec Sch. I was like OF COURSE IM FREE seh.

So confirm tomorrow start.
and I will be teaching Malay subject.
(jus imagine Ciknisa will be teaching all the peribahasa and will be speaking Bahasa Baku)
hurhur..

Im so excited..!
Didnt plan to look for a job.
Skali the job come to me.. kekekekek....

i dont mind about the pay..
Im just looking forward to get the feeling of being a Secondary sch teacher..
hurhur...

Im Happy..

2008-09-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah...
I think Allah has granted me new nice people around me.
given me another chance to make a circle of friends..
hurhur... =D

Ive changed my blog song..
I find the previous one very irritating and
cannot stop the song..

so.....
my dad bought me a nice white and glassdoor cupboard for my books from Ikea.
So happy!
its 1.9m . yeah very tall.. good so can put lotsa things inside.
then last night i dismental my current cupboard on my own...
screwed out here and there..
got poked by a nail..
den walllaaah! all dismentalled..
got 10 pieces all togther then brought down.. heavy!
then today got aches here and there...

dad's gonna buy paint tomorrow..
I hope the colour is nice..
Burple Broom!
wohooo....

my room is really in a mess!
Spring cleaning..
I discovered lotsa things..
i counted the mgazines in my cupboard,
total 50 magz.. hurhur..

talked to Mr just now while chatting with siraj and fana.
30 mins later i realised that hes not been talkng.
I shouted his name oso no sound.
then i heard a snore! lol! lol! lol!
then i jus hung up... so kiut lah.

Mr has been working really hard to make it happen.
what thing happen? hehe wait lor...
Im so proud of him.
He drove this morning with his tank empty..
hheehehe... pity him..

I miss my kutuheads lah!
Im coming! dun worry!

Siraj is complaining that his bored at home.
Fana and me still deciding when to bring this guy out and the rest of the people who wants to join.
then can find him raya clothes oso..

oh yes and i bought a nice white and purple long dress... hohoho... happy!
i think this is the cheapest baju raya that i ever spend.
usually is above 150. but i find this dress very sweet. 80 bux oni..
dun think i'll be buying baju kurung. I still have a gold baju kurung which i only wore it once.
so.. this year save lor...

okay lights out!

Im starting to miss everyone

2008-09-06T07:37:00.005+08:00

as per normal i always don look forward to my term holidays.
cos its always falls on Uchu's school days.
uchu's supposed to come over to my place, but she had something on.
so nvm..

next wk she'll be coming
Quick come!
i wan to laugh until i cry with you...

as usual, we talked on de phone and talked crap.
talked about our schoolmates @ junied.
Kinda miss school...
long time never go junied.

then yday afternoon talked with the s507.
miss dem oso seh...
now everyone with their own life..
and yday was my first time chatting with iskandar sabani.
wah.. i never talked to him in class seh.
den he added me in msn.. then talk talk..
fun seh.. kk..

den what eh...

oh yes, im planning to get a queen sized bed lah..
thought of make over my room.
will be buying paint soon.
bro said he will try to help me with the drawing on the wall.
need to do some spring cleaning.
my prmary school books are still in the cabinets and drawers..
lama lama dok!

Im waiting for dya to call me when shes coming over.
cos she wants to me to help her cook for her future mama in law.

i miss my ITE friends lah..
best girlfriend!!! patricia!!!
My kutuheads! Is, era and rose...
long time never see...
will see you next week or mybe next 2 weeks..
yeah!!!
and i miss you too ERa!!!

of Fana planned on bringing siraj around at geyland and breakfast together oneof these days
and asked me to come along..
yeah! looking forward... it would be fun breakfasting together!
Speaking of fana, feel sorry for her
about her car license..
i hope theres nothing bad happen.

I suddenly feel that Im now a happier person..
Ever since Ramadhan reruns, ive been calmed. thats what i see lah..

Things to do this Ramadhan,

Start reading Quran.

Forgive the people around you.

Make Dua everyday.

Only go out once a week.

Spring cleaning.

Talk to friend online, phone, sms....

Forget the past.

Make new friends as much as possible..

I think i realise something,

i think i cant have besties...

dunno why.. i think i feel that,

I am more of a *just friend * then being a bestfriend.

but uchu is still my bestie aka crime partner aka merepek partner aka uchu and along!! hehe....

I love you UCHU.

from your along-kang!

2008-09-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah..
another thing to cure my tension..
Green tea again.. haha.. bought like 2 1.5l bottle.

went to giant just now with Mister.
drove there then bought lotsa things.
spent like 40+ bux on my personal things.
then he spent lie 60+ haha..
Sakai!

During this Ramadhan,
Im trying to learn to be more patient with things that are surrounding me.
hurhur...
thats why Ramadhan tehes us to be more patient.
good time to upgrade myself.

thats all for now

2008-09-03T10:02:00.002+08:00

I think this is too much.
You want me to do all things by myself. fine.
now when ive done all thinsg by myself,
you screw up everything...
and i MEAN EVERYTHING...

you think i want to let you off just let that when you
spoilt my expensive things?
so easy for you to say sorry and give lame excuses...

Its so obvious that i was drenching my wallet n the pale.
u could just tell me that you wan to use.
or just simply put it aside.
NOT PUTTING MY WALLET IN THE WASHING MACHINE WITH THE REST
OF THE RUGS!

AND WHATS UR EXCUSE?
YOU SIMPLY SAY "OH, I DIDNT SEE"
EXCUSE ME, THE WALLET WAS IN THE PALE ! ALONE!

ISNT IT OBVIOUS THE RUG AND THE WALLET WITH THE BIG G INFRONT?
WTH WERE YOU THINKING?
NOW MY WALLET IS FILLED WITH SCRATCHES AND RUST.

AND YOU SIMPLY SAID "OH I DIDNT SEE.."

2008-09-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

i shall blog in malay n english becos im very lazy..

hari ni aku rase paper paling rabak..
mpo.. i think i lost 2o marks..
tak gile tu? 20 marks question aku jawab tapi hentam bocey... mcm kacang bonces...
ya Allah.. pening sgt..

2day 2nd day of Ramadhan...
i didnt have anything this morning..
haiz.. balik ape lagi pengsan ah..
mcm nak minum green tea for buke..
wheres my heaven and earth?

aku ni mcm boleh minta monthly supply from Heaven and Earth...
eh serious.. hari ni aku penat gile..
im hoping to go masjid after math paper is done.
i heard the imam at Mesjid ghufran is org arab from saudi.
hmm mesti sedap bace...

pelik kan knp aku nye post in malay..
haha... rase mcm pembaca aku ni untuk org melayu..
hahahhaa.... sorry im not in de best mood to speak english..

nyaaahhhh!!

im having a qurrel with mister again.
this time is about going overseas studying..
haizz.... HAIZZ...
pening! penat!

I want green tea!!!

Siraj!! asal kau buat aku mcm ni....
hurhur.. baik2 aku tak pkir sal green tea..
u mentioned to me now i wan to buy..
hurhurhurhurhruhr...
mati!

i left at 12 dot.
seriously dunno what to write anymore..
i wrote like essay but dunno got point or not.
CRAZY!

aku nak tido! bye

2008-08-31T09:13:00.003+08:00

Woke up this morning by the sound of the phone.
Granny called in to inform me that she had taken the Scissors.
Scissors? ok sudenly i rolled my eyes big. what in de world with scissors?

dunno lah she took for my dad..

den i woke up..
I suddenly realised that ivenot been charging my phone for 4 days.
4days? JOKE!
The johor trip had to be cancelled. and went out w jengjeng.
for while oni cos she got appointment. haiz..
then when home. after that around 1. Aidah came with brownies!
so sweeet. cooked for her pasta and potato salad.
then at 3 she slept while i continue studying.
then at 4 something huge happen between me and mister.
didnt expect the thing to happen.
at 8 Aidah had to go home so we go down together.

he was unhappy den drove all the where to my house.
I came down and clarify things. i wasnt unhapy about it too.
then for 2 hours we talked.
from 8-10pm we talked at the void deck.
but Alhamdulillah things got better.
we both said what we feel and finalised everything and apologised.
the saddest part, he cried like gallons of tears.
awwwh...

den later at 10 talked to Aidah.
she suddenly trashed out everything shes been keeping from me.
Im so sad for her. she didnt wana tell me cos she knew i was busy.
geeezzz... you know i would always be there for you..
it was very sad to hear her stories. I only helped her by giving her suggestions and
opinions. thats the most i could do.

talked to her until 11.50 den talked to Mr. heart to heart talk. chey..

then sleep on the phone.. and droooled... haha...

Happy 18th Birthday Siti Nachos!

and tomorrow is Ramadhan.. in fact tonight is Ramadhan!!
Yeahhhhhhhh...........................

2008-08-29T11:57:00.001+08:00

2008-08-28T14:14:00.002+08:00

With the exams around the corner,
with the 2 little kiddos at home,
and with me having PMS,

Cadbury really help me a lot.
Really made me feel high again.

its been quite a long time since i last met Mr.
miss him a lort!

2008-08-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

Im hungry.

Today's Discovery

2008-08-27T16:20:00.002+08:00

anyways i try my best.

today i read an article about 'Ilm. (knowledge)

sudenly an Ustazah's (Islamic teacher)advice popped up in my head.

Cant remember which ustazah told me about this.

Prophet Muhammad pbuh, was tested by Allah. he went through a lot of circumstances

to stand up for Islam. he never once raised the white flag.

Once, he had a neighbour who was a non muslim. As we all know, Rasulullah was hated by many Kafiruns *non-muslims*. Until his neighbour, an old lady, everyday without fail put her dog's waste infront of Prophet Muhammad's door.

He kept quiet and remove the waste. He didnt utter anything to the old lady.

This even became a routine for the old lady to put her dog's waste at the door. Until one day, Prophet Muhammad heard that the old lady fell sick. He quickly visitted her and even brought her a plate of meat. The old lady was shocked and broke down.

She felt embarrassed for her wrong doings towards him. She apologised to him and later, she converted to Islam.

moral of the story is,

never ill-treat anyone eventhough they have ill-treated you badly.

Smile whenever you see them. Be nice to them.

secondly,

If you have(know) something that others dont. Share with them.

Dont be arrogant for what you have (know). Allah might take away those priveledges.

The intelligence that we have cannot be compared to Allah's intelligence.

Therefore, whatever we know, we must always share even to one person.

Call tones.

2008-08-27T14:12:00.002+08:00

So.....
I changed my normal irritating tone to Love Story by Katherine Mcphee.
initially it was David cook. but i changed.
Dad thought it was a voicemail keke... mister too.. keke..
gotcha!
i remember nasihah last time used gareth gates voicemail and when i called her,
i keep hanging up. thought it ws a voicemail. silly me.

anyway, its been 3 days i sit at home. (which is so not me)
no money. this week dad wont be giving money cos i'll be at home solid.
soo.. no shopping lor.

Mister today very busy. driving here and there.
got lotsa places to go. and oso attend client.
pity him. but nemind im sure its going to be worth it.

sometimes i hate staying at home.
no food. no people.
been surviiving on bread, maggi and chocs.
until 8pm then got food.
*faint*

oklah thats all!

Lady+ SARS + Oral Exams = ME!

2008-08-26T16:34:00.004+08:00

Im in love with this song on my blog.
Make me realise the truth about being a Lady .

Im starting to have fever.
been sneezing a lot since morning.
Its particularly normal this season.

thats why they call it, Post Exam sickness aka Exam Fever.

Every year without fail i will fall sick before exam.
my worst sick was during SARS period. funny when i reminice.
my classmates thought i had SARS. i had a week of MC. then had to retake all my papers.
Fortunately, thanks to "pre-SARS "sickness, i got first in class. keke...

Oh and yesterday was my English O lvl oral.
Alhamdulillah, this year oral is wayyyy better than last yr.
i didnt screw up.
i did what iwas thought during sec 4.

I was given a passage on a man who made acting as a career and ended up helping
at the old folks home.
Since i like this kinda topic, i managed to answer their questions smootly.
Picture description, I kept describing the picture non stop until they asked to.
keke...
then came the conversation,
they asked...

What was the best performance that you;ve ever attended?
I talked about the Samba performance with Dya. ekek...

Would you consider acting as you career?
at first i was like *eeeeek!* i never thought of that.
then I yaya bobaya said yes. keke. and told them that we are able to
learn different kinds of expression and on top of that we are able to predict others feelings.

last..

What do you think about "worry"?
haha... i cant say that worry is not good for health... i myself worry to much...
so i told them Worrying is good. it makes us learn the situation better and learn from it.
Worrying is also good because without it, we tend not to think about what others are feeling.

i didnt know what de heck i said for the last part.
however, i think i did better than last time.

keke.. and the examiner is hawt!
keke.. chinese man and a malay lady.

and yes, im now worrying about my mpo. eeeeek!

I didnt know until YOU make me realise

2008-08-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

I am thankful to you Allah.
if those things didnt happen, i would forget you.
if i were continue to be healthy as ever, i would keep forgetting you.

until those things happen,
i realise ive been very far from you.
because you loved me, you make those things happen.
When i seek your love and help,
everything that had happened, turned out to be better.

Ive been very high of myself until i forgotten everything about u.

Forgive me Dear Allah..
Im still far from your eyes, am i not?
Give me chance to take each step slowly to realise everything.

Everyday is a learning journey.
Allah is The Greatest.

2008-08-24T18:17:00.006+08:00

Watch this! I almost cried went i watch this.
Masya Allah.....

Marha Marha!

Olympic Fever.

2008-08-24T14:00:00.002+08:00

Did i tell you that my famiy has been into olympics every since
it started?
Yes. They are obsessed with whatever competitions that are showed on TV.
Sometimes I find my family very cute.
Yesterday, I was doing something here and there with my blog when I heard
my family shouted "wooah" "alamak" "wohoo". no idea what match did they watch.

I smiled. and shooked my head.

Ahah, so i finally put up Agnes M's Song.
very sadd yet motivating song. keke..

Im kinda sick of getting questions like "When are you getting married?" "Any plans for engagement?" in malay. Well, My destiny is all arranged by Allah. I shall only plan but he decides. Therefore theres no point for me to mention when am i getting engaged or married.

Why people never ask me " do you need help in your exams?"keke
ok. fullstop.

Random

2008-08-24T00:06:00.003+08:00

I think i shall paint my room this year for hari Raya.
maybe purple and white.
and some pink here and there... and draw some flowers and bees and sketch here and there..
wooaaahh!! messy big time.. confirm another scolding from dad. lol..

that tym had my wall done..
painted my name..

my room has been messy lately.. books here and there.

Mr Ho is watching mid night movie with his cousins.
and im here trying to sleep but cant...
usually he would accompany me on de phone until i sleep.

but tonight shall sleep alone.

still wondering what song to put in my blog.

and i still remember the Motorcycle joke with Mr Ho.
haha..... I can traslate it in English but confirm not funny.
We laughed our ass out until he kena horn by another driver while drive at ECP.
Crazy to de core and to de moon...

its soo fun being with you syg...
thanks for all the sweeeeettt memories..

LElaki itu sayang banget sama aku dong!!!
Samu kamu Jugak!!! =)
nyah nyah nyah...

Im so over Kangen Band- Doy.
Can move my ass when listening to it...
"Coba ko Pikirkan! Coba Kau Renungkan!...."
hehe... grooovy!! thanks Mardeee...!

2008-08-23T18:35:00.003+08:00

I i totally forgot to post about the examinations.

Examinations are around the corner.
to be exact, 8 days.
My English will be this Monday. keke.
This yr i hope to pass my oral.
Last yr i screwed up my oral big time.

Ouh and yes 1st September is coming.
Which mean Ramadhan is coming!! yeah! yeah!
Ahlen ya Ramadhan!!!
I hope this year I can fast one whole month solid without any "holiday". keke.
at the same time I hope to get Barakah from Ramdhan and pass my exams.

Allahummaj 3alna minnan najihat fid dunya wal akhirah.
Wala taku nanna minal jahilin. Wan surna 3alal qawmil kafirin.

A Doa for me to pass! hurhur...

I am thankful to you Allah.

2008-08-23T13:31:00.006+08:00

Aaaah new skin.

Didnt know i have the time to change skins.

Alhamdulillah...
Everythings fine. And I am very thankful to you Allah for giving me a chance to
live today. You have given me strength to take another step to strive for my future.
Though I had done a lot of sins you have still given me the strenght and patience.
I am thankful..

So the day before yesterday i had the worst migraine ever.
it felt like someone had bitten my head. centre and right side of it.
then yesterday morning vomitted like twice.
couldnt take it, immediately went polyclinic and got a priority number.
Consulted a female doctor to check my head.
i told her that ive been having migrains for the past 4 months.
then she told me that this migrain is getting worse until i felt theres something bitting and it throbs continuously. she check my eyes see if i have any vision blur.
after everything, asked her whats wrong then she gave me a referral letter to SGH.
I was shock, how can it be so serious until i got a referral letter.
she had asked me if i have an appointment to SGH. i nodded and informed her its in october.
she then asked me to go now as not to delay if i have this kinda sickness.
made me even more scared. she then asked me if i have any emotion changes and did anyone ask if i have changed. then i nodded. she said, these are symptoms of brain cancer.
without delay, i thanked the doc and wet off.

i then went out of the room and called dad and machoman.

Machoman met me at tamp interchange.
then straight took cab to SGH accident and emergency dept.
in cab i ter"cried".
cos the doc said there will be an investigation. then machoman calmed me down.
and said everythings gonna be fine. trust me.

I slept the whole journey. been sleeping for 3 hours every night.

consulted the neurologist.
told her the same thing, then she checked my muscles and vision.
she concluded that i have been over stress. and too much toxic in my head therefore the migraine got worse. later she gave me injections. she asked me to rest outside for half hour and inform her if it got better. it felt better but the throbbing was still there.
she said the throb will eventualy go away.

So thankful that nothing major happened.

after everything finished.
Machoman told me to take good care of myself.
and told me about what happened recently.
he reminded me to only care about myself from now.
set goals tht i am only in school to obtain my diploma.
theres no need to be close to anyone.
set limits when having friends as to avoid any conflicts to happen in future.
he told me that im weak when comes to having problems.
so to avoid problems to occur, i shall set limits in everything i do.

Im vry thankful even though he knew that i have made mistakes towards my friends,
and initially unhappy with me, his love never fades.
"no matter what wrong you did, my love never fades. cos u r still the khairunnisa that i knew"
that applies to my dad.
he was angry at me initially. disappointed to be exact.
and it happened that he said the same thing to me.

I am happy that the most important people in my life still accepts me eventhough
i made a mistake. i guess these are my true friends.
disappointment will still be there but the love never fade.
from there they will guide me to be a better person.
cos from mistakes, we learn.

Alhamdulillah.

I couldnt thank you enough to give me such people in life, ya Allah.

And Mr Eddie Ho,
He got his E71 white colour. Like Finally....
his still fantisizing the phone until dowan to msg me. haha...
and the sweetest part was he chose a new number that has our date in it.
07.08.05..
keke..